my poor vein

hmm.. today im gonna tell ya abt my 'vein injection' experience. well, i have this varicose vein disease since i was a kid. i didnt know anything abt it. lately, i knew that -i think- in my case this is an inherited disease. maybe theres something wrong with my vein valve.
ive been suffering from this pain for years. tired of peoples' questions and glances.
so, i took the decision to inject the damaged vein for the purpose that it wont spread to another vein. moreover, im a nurse though. i dont want this disease bothers me in my daily life.
i went to a hospital in Fatmawati St, South Jakarta last Wednesday (June 2nd, 2010). i met a beautiful cosmetic surgeon :) the cosmetic surgeon shot my damaged vein (in both legs) with sclerotic drugs, in several locations (uughh..) it will kill my damaged veins so the blood wont use them anymore. the blood will find other ways (veins) to reach my heart (recanalization). starting from that day, i should wear elastic dress on my both legs for a week. i hope this medication wont leave any scratch, since i love wearing short.
oya, i should take care my legs well after this. i should wear varicose stockings whenever im in the mid of activities that need much sit or stand positions. oh God.. i hope varicose wont come to me anymore in the future. i dont wanna get trouble when im delivering baby as well :) please God.. enough..

Lean On You

This is the documents thingy. Oh God.. what step should I make? Mom said that I’d better find a job here. I know she’s hoping the best for me. But I’m working on this! I cant stop or even walk back. This is my ambition since forever! My family should support me. If they don’t, so the rest is me, I and God. I do what I can do. I give the rest up to You… and that’s more than enough.

Pusiinng.. Pusiiingg

gw pusing. birokrasi.. oh.. birokrasi.. kemaren bilangnya dokumen gw udah lengkap, sekarang malah kurang.. oh Tuhan.. tahap apalagi yg harus gw jalanin? andaikan gw bisa menutup telinga dari suara orang2 yg kerap bertanya.

gw juga kepikiran bonbon nih. semoga lo cepet sembuh ya bon.. dont give up, please.. i know you can do it. andaikan gw punya kemampuan utk bantuin lo sedikiit aja. tapi gw siap ko klo lo butuh gw, hanya saja mengapa kau betah di rumah patrick-mu itu? diam disana layaknya beruang yg hibernasi. ntar klo lo udah sembuh, makannya banyak lagi yaa, tapi bertahap. biar gemuk lagi oke? gw bantuin deh supaya lo gemuk lagi haha. sekarang ini lo jadi kura2 budeg aja, cuekin dulu suara2 yg ga membangun. masih banyak waktu. ok dear?
*poto di atas untuk menyemangati lo hahaha :D

ini mesej lo tgl 20/11/09:

"ayo Ria, kita bisa!!! Paksain diri kita masing-masing untuk bisa ngerjainnya!! Semangat ya dear!!"


God be with us